Last week I had a small episode. Luckily the medications did their job and it was contained in the nic of time. Not only the medications, but I sought out help from the ER staff and family who supported me through my transition. But why was my brain so overactive to begin with? What pressures…
Unless you are part of the lucky few who absolutely love their jobs, working is hard. Especially as a bipolar mom. Let me explain. Bipolar mothers are very sensitive emotionally as it is, and especially so towards their little children. Leaving them makes you question your ability to parent, makes you question whether they will…
One of the themes in my life (and perhaps many with bipolar or anxiety disorder) is trusting other people or other influences way more than listening to my inner voice and being my authentic self. I am the obedient type, and can succumb to peer pressure and media influences. So much in culture is about…
I don’t know about you, but I don’t handle stress very well. When I am stressed, I make poor decisions, I am irrational as a rule, I binge eat or eat to appease my emotions, and just feel drained and exhausted. And I seem to have a relatively low threshold for stress. That’s why I…
Looking back at how I felt in September (feeling irritable, depressed, tired, etc), going to work has basically only made me have more responsibility. I have to be on call and prepared to leave at a moment’s notice at any given moment. And when I do have the call, I need to prepare Elizabeth’s lunch…
FINALLY, I got a job! I am officially a delivery agent for Canada Post (formerly letter carrier). I am excited! It was a long process of hiring, with several interviews, tests, background checks and so forth. It isn’t in my hometown, however, it is in Cambridge, which means I will have a commute (about 30…
Parenting is tough – being a bipolar parent is even tougher. I have noticed during the pandemic that I have been more irritable; everyday seems to be a struggle. When my baby spills food, I get frustrated because its just one other thing I have to clean (it seems like all I do is clean nowadays).…
I got in! I received an email from Redeemer’s College that I was accepted! How awesome is that??? I couldn’t get a job, but I got offered admission to a prestigious school! But after talking about it with my husband, since we have so little money, it looks like we are unable to make it…
While I am waiting for acceptance offers at universities, I have been busy applying for work. But it is difficult to find work. I have been off work for almost 9 months and I am not on the ball. I have applied for hundreds of jobs and have received numerous interview offers. But I am…
I applied to teacher’s college and received a request for an interview at Redeemer University. I searched online for articles regarding what you say and not say on your interview. I didn’t find any, so I decided to write this as a resource for myself and for others. So here we go! What not to…
Being a parent with mental illness has its drawbacks, to be sure; however, like any other disability, mental illness can be managed, and managed well. A combination of therapy, medication, and social/family supports all help with setting up the parent for success. Not only that, but being insightful about your illness, knowing when an episode…
I am currently in the midst of applying to school. I have applied to a Masters of Divinity at McMaster, teacher’s college at Redeemer University, and at Conestoga College for Medication Administration, Early Childhood Education, and Interior Decorating. I have various reasons for applying to these programs. I wanted to lay them out below to…
I have been told that I have a strong will, and that I am a survivor. I believe it is true, because no matter how hard life gets, even when I am in my mind’s hell, I somehow find a way out. I am relentless. How did I get to be that way? There is…
One of the main reasons why I am applying to school is so that I can be the role model my dear Elizabeth needs. She deserves a mother who follows her dreams and never gives up. But there have been a few dreams that I have put on the back burner… When I first met…
Although being a mom is tough, I have learned to adapt. Before I could be very selfish and focus just on myself for a whole day; now, I have no choice, I have to be more selfless. The laundry and dishes always have to be done, because we need clothes and bottles. I need to…
I have a hard time figuring out what word to use to describe my experiences. Sometimes I use psychic, other times I use synchronicities, others, prophetic. In this article, I am going to flush out how I use and don’t use the terms. Psychic You see things in advance before they happen Examples for me…
I love chickpeas. They are so versatile. They can be used as part of a salad, as a dip, as an alternative meat patty for a burger, and so much more. They have a nice texture, and a subtle flavour. It is common in Mediterranean cuisine, where I also made a Fruity Lamb Tagine using…
So my husband and I are in the process of purchasing a new house. We’re living in a condo now; we love it, but there’s now a lack of space with our daughter being here. So we have been looking into combining two households; my mother-in-law and her friend Cheryl will be moving in to…
I have lost weight! It is only a pound, and could just be water weight but I don’t think so. I have been careful to eat less and move more this week, and so I think I am well on my way to starting new routines, new habits, and a better way of life. But…
Soo…. I broke my fast yesterday. I ate two meals, at lunch and at dinner. But to give myself some slack, we’ve also been taking care of a deal to buy a home and sell ours and it’s been particularly intense lately. But still, I did manage to skip breakfast, which is a feat on…
I sometimes think too much. I am a perfectionist, and I am good at thinking things through. But there are some things out there that doesn’t have an answer. I am very willful. I have pretty strong desires that can get the better of me at times. I have made mistakes because of this. I…
This is my rant for today… This society would have you believe that conformity will make you belong, feel good, make you successful. However, there’s no true concept of normality – what is normal anyway? It is just accepted reality… but what if accepted reality WAS the idiosyncratic, the unique, the difference, the weird. What…
Today marks the first day of a three day cleanse for myself and my husband. I am excited to see if we can make it without having a problem, like dehydration. I take lithium, and so dehydration is a real scary thing while taking this medication. So hopefully I am diligent enough to stay hydrated…
I recently went through a post-partem episode that was beyond what I had experienced in the past. From feeling like I was birthing a new universe, to staring into the sun (was it just a dream?), to trying to control the universe that I created, to feeling like I was in the movie It’s a…
Recently, Andrew and I have started playing the lottery. It was after much time and pressure that we decided it wasn’t sin, and do it. We weren’t sure if God wanted us to play or just trust in Him. I had a vision a few nights ago that I was looking into my wallet and…