Innocence Returning – Being the New Eve in the New Year

Innocence Returning – Being the New Eve in the New Year

One of the themes in my life (and perhaps many with bipolarĀ  or anxiety disorder) is trusting other people or other influences way more than listening to my inner voice and being my authentic self. I am the obedient type, and can succumb to peer pressure and media influences. So much in culture is about trying to doubt your true self – try this product and be more beautiful, 10 Ways to Seduce Him To Like You, listening to your mother’s disapproval of your boyfriend, etc. But there isn’t much information on how to tap into your inner wisdom and trust your instincts, with the exception of the bible (which I wasn’t too keen on reading until I was 18 years old). For twenty years I have been trying to figure out how to traverse my life when all I really needed was to go back to square 1 and listen to my inner compass, the spirit within me.

After all I have been through, I have finally realized that I am not supposed to wait for a hero. I am the hero. We aren’t waiting for Jesus to be back, He is already back, living with us, living within us. We already have the resurrecting power of Jesus. I can slow down time or speed it up (manic/depression), I can hear God’s voice (sometimes audibly, sometimes in a dream). I can heal people, bring people back from death, and I can be an intercessor for others.

I am no longer the daughter of Eve who sinned. I am the New Eve; I have overcome the world, I know I am good despite my past, because of my willingness to sacrifice for an enemy in Christ, and I know I am worthy of God’s promises. All the scars and the memories of my sin is still present, but that makes me fully human and fully divine. No more self-doubt, no more agonizing indecision. I am able. I can. I am Cain, for I have sinned. I am Abel, for the shepherd is in me.

So by faith I will raise up my daughter, understanding that the power of free will is a gift, and even in sin we can rise above. So I am unafraid of whatever comes our way. Even another pandemic.