My 3rd Episode starting… and NO DEPRESSION, just miracles!

My 3rd Episode starting… and NO DEPRESSION, just miracles!

Basically, since I have had episodes, I have been praying for a time that I would have a spiritual encounter with God and be manic, but not have depression. My first episode I was depressed for 1 year; for my 2nd episode, I was depressed for 6 months. Here is what happened.
I knew that by being pregnant my medications may become not as effective due to the higher blood volume… but because I had just recently changed to these meds just before becoming pregnant, we had no prior blood levels to compare it to and so, no baseline. So, I essentially simply increased myself to a smaller extra dose.
Since being pregnant, I often wake up in the middle of the night to go to the washroom.
I was getting anxious, because I knew that if I kept losing sleep, I might go through another episode. So I hugged my faith. When I couldn’t fall back to sleep, I read through the Healing Scriptures booklet that I bought from the Sid Roth’s organization.
I was praying for my boss Marianne’s sister who just found out she had stage 4 Cancer in the lymph nodes. And she had said wants to live, she feels like she has hardly lived. So as I was praying for her, my heart warmed, as well as my raised palm during a revival segment during Sid Roth. Just as soon as I felt the warmth, the preacher in the segment said that God is healing people with lymphatic cancer.
I started writing an email to Marianne, using the power of Christ and His message to pray healing on her. I also said that she will have some kind of stirring in her soul. Sure enough, this sister visited the medical clinic where we work without anyone knowing she was coming, not even her sister Marianne. Marianne called me a psychic; I don’t believe I am, I believe in the prophetic gift. I am not guessing, I know and I love. But she did say that I could continue in that and feel free to give my messages to patients.
I found out later that shortly afterwards, Cheryl, a family friend, received a healing as well during the Sid Roth’s It’s Supernatural. Praise God!!!
Days later, Andrew and I watched the movie The Proposal and realized there were remarkable similarities between this story line and our lives.
Overnight one night, I was reading an article that caused anxiety. It was about earthquakes and end times; was I doing the right thing? Am I messing up? I woke up Andrew and he said calming words; I prayed, found peace, and realized it must be Satan.
My error was that I was looking into signs too much; in the stars, about Jesus’ birth and how it might relate to our daughter who is due in December.
I asked God August 30th: God, LORD, I pray REVEAL to Me my problem, and SHOW ME my mistake and how to UNDERSTAND the SOLUTION.
Soon after, I heard or saw a mild vision of God’s communication. I saw “MAKE LOVE”. I responded, “But I don’t want Andrew to wake up because of me, I want to respect him. Only if he wakes up.” 30 seconds later, Andrew miraculously woke  up and went to the washroom. We made love, and we talked about some deep issues.
September 1st, I heard a strange thought which entered my mind “if you get 50 dollars in 50 minutes”…
Andrew was looking at mattresses for hours the night before trying to find something for our nursery. On Amazon, his cart had $50 coupons with his items. He was a little perturbed by it and realized it probably wasn’t a coincidence. We decided to be more patient (since patience is a virtue) and wait for more clarity on the issue. I feel that the lesson was that GOD speaks COMMANDS, but Satan’s speaks in conditional “if” statements… which was similar to my first episode where I heard “if life was a game, you lost”.
I prayed “Lord Jesus, I pray to you this eve, that I might be able to have restful sleep, with many vivid dreams. I don’t need it, all I need is You. I’m not afraid. But it would be appreciated. Amen.”
September 5th, I had communications with God.
Me: What are your plans for my life?
God: GO TO THE MOUNT OF OLIVES
Me: Why?
God: TO BRING LIGHT INTO THE WORLD AND CONQUER EVIL
Me: Will people be hurt?
God: I HAVE BIGGER PLANS… YOU WILL DIE.
Me (some anxiety first, then I said): Like Jesus? (Afraid that I would die a physical death)
God: Better. You will die to sin. Your daughter will be Queen
Me (feeling happiness as a mom)
God: QUEEN JEZEBEL
Me: I don’t want her to be Queen Jezebel
God: SO BE IT
Me: SO I have to Go to the Mount of Olives literally. Like, on a plane?
God: ASK ANDREW
Me (I woke up Andrew, and he said to me Go to Sleep)
Me (to God): What is your timeline?
God: BE QUICK
I showed this conversation to Andrew. He told me to go get a lottery ticket.
I was worried, because I wanted God to get all the glory, but I wanted to respect and follow and love Andrew. I cried for Andrew, realizing that he needed rest and he’s been working really hard and worrying about finances, and to “be still and know that I am God” and I want him to be home more and be with our child when she arrives and not have the burden of finances on him. I prayed, then I heard in my mind’s inner voice, ‘Jesus said, give me your burdens and I will give you rest’. Then I heard, “IT’S DONE. GO HOME”.

On my way home, I dropped a coffee off to Andrew and told him the two things I heard, and said, “I will get the lottery ticket if I hear it clearly from GOD because I don’t want it to be from My doing. Give GOD all the glory.”

Then I saw a prophecy online with a set of numbers that looked like lottery numbers. (As context, I wasn’t spending hours searching – it was the first site I visited).
 
I was asked one other time to win the lottery – my ex. He had presumably seen some peculiar things or wanted proof and said to help him win the lottery. But I couldn’t, I didn’t believe in it, and I was upset.
 
But this time, Andrew asked me. I knew that it was ambiguous in the bible. I asked Andrew’s mom, and she said it wasn’t clear in the bible, but not to do it for the wrong reasons and don’t let it affect our finances. And I knew I needed to be obedient to Andrew in grey areas like this, and I knew it was increase his faith… so in faith, I did it.

Now, I am believing that if we are obedient, God will enable it to happen, that my lottery dream represents potential, and my goal is to depend more fully on God and less on my abilities. I pray that if we ever did win 3 lotteries simultaneously, that we would keep none of it, and give glory only to God, and that God would use us as His witnesses for the rest of our lives. Amen.