People-pleasing…

People-pleasing…

Am I a people-pleaser? I really need to focus on peace for myself instead. I need to stop thinking about what other people think of me. People will hate me no matter what I do, and people will like me despite my faults. So I should just be at peace and be me.
I have to learn to forgive myself. I read Ecclesiastes this morning. It is important to not take foolishness/righteousness to the extremes. It is important to be righteous with a little bit of foolishness. So what can I do?
On Halloween I dressed up as a flapper and lots of other people dressed up. I think everyone looked great.
I have also been getting a lot of compliments, which I am overwhelmed by. My manager called me a “gem”, and also said that I am a quick learner, the girl in admin said I am a hard worker, and another co-worker said that I am personable and “fit right in”. So that was nice. Even today, another co-worker said, “your perfume is on point” although I don’t think it was my perfume that he smelled. I totally have no idea, I did put some on in the morning but I doubt that this is what he smelled.
Today was a pretty hectic day. I didn’t have a lot to drink, and my lunch was cut short due to a confusion about my lunch. I felt bad that I asked scheduling to add 4 minutes to my break. She said not to make a habit of it. But she is real nice about it.
I went to the priest Saturday and confessed about some of my temptations and struggles and he said it sounds like puppy love. He says you can’t help who you are attracted to but it is what you do with it. If he likes me, would I do anything? No. (Even though I so want to at times). If he doesn’t like me? I’ll be sad, but I wouldn’t do anything either.
Just lots of weird calls. And a weird time for me. I am now off my epival going on 1 week. Not sure if I am doing a good job without it. I have to wait and see I suppose, but I don’t want it to get too bad. I am getting sleepy. Going to bed. God, I pray to you in Jesus’ name to protect me from evil and allow me only to partake in foolish things that are not against your commandments, and to allow myself to just be me.