Reflections on Our Time Together So Far…

Reflections on Our Time Together So Far…

 

I want to take some time to reflect about conversations we’ve had, things I have learned, and how I can be a complement to Andrew.
Andrew has never really been in debt before, except when he took a $10 000 bank loan to pay for a computer, which he paid off in a year. And now he has a car and is thinking of buying a house. I love him.
Andrew said that he never left Sarah. Apparently, she cheated on him 3 times. I never cheated on anyone physically (although emotionally I had a mind-affair ; see the post My First Episode).
There was one morning when I was wondering if he shaved and then that evening he said he forgot to shave. I took it to mean him and I were in sync.
I have been overdrinking and he has been overspending. We’re going to reel that in.
He removed his medications before he met me. I have been titrating it down even since I met him. I have experienced more anxiety. But I think it is the right decision.
I had talked with my doctor about having kids and master’s program and he thought I should wait. I told this to Andrew and he still wants to have kids with me. He says, “That was a baby-maker”. I told my ex and he said wait for the Masters of Divinity and I felt a block in my heart.
Andrew had a strict father who kept raising the bar on him. It was expected that he would be very successful. But he rebelled. He lacked motivation to succeed.
He did ministry from when he was 26 to 30 years old with Jesse Woodrow. He didn’t make money at it and he doesn’t think you can.
Andrew would be able to write highly creative stories but his grammar and spelling weren’t good, so he wouldn’t get good marks. Reminds me of my first boyfriend.
Andrew said that he stopped going to school and then worked to pay off his debt. The chances of returning to school was around 10%. He decided to go back to school and finish.
He and I both have the fear that we’re living the same life over and over again into eternity. But it makes me feel anxious so it can’t be true. Jesus had a resurrected body and we too will have that.
Andrew never dated a girl that had a job. I want to impress him and contribute as part of the relationship. I don’t want to take, take, take. I want to be like his mom who worked.