I sometimes think too much. I am a perfectionist, and I am good at thinking things through. But there are some things out there that doesn’t have an answer. I am very willful. I have pretty strong desires that can get the better of me at times. I have made mistakes because of this. I…
This is my rant for today… This society would have you believe that conformity will make you belong, feel good, make you successful. However, there’s no true concept of normality – what is normal anyway? It is just accepted reality… but what if accepted reality WAS the idiosyncratic, the unique, the difference, the weird. What…
Today marks the first day of a three day cleanse for myself and my husband. I am excited to see if we can make it without having a problem, like dehydration. I take lithium, and so dehydration is a real scary thing while taking this medication. So hopefully I am diligent enough to stay hydrated…
I recently went through a post-partem episode that was beyond what I had experienced in the past. From feeling like I was birthing a new universe, to staring into the sun (was it just a dream?), to trying to control the universe that I created, to feeling like I was in the movie It’s a…
Recently, Andrew and I have started playing the lottery. It was after much time and pressure that we decided it wasn’t sin, and do it. We weren’t sure if God wanted us to play or just trust in Him. I had a vision a few nights ago that I was looking into my wallet and…
I repented and received healing. I felt shame and grief earlier today because of a season of mistakes for 7 years, being in a wrong relationship… the prophet Tracy on It’s Supernatural by Sid Roth spoke over me, he said what I lost in 7 years I will receive in one year. I have felt…
Basically, since I have had episodes, I have been praying for a time that I would have a spiritual encounter with God and be manic, but not have depression. My first episode I was depressed for 1 year; for my 2nd episode, I was depressed for 6 months. Here is what happened. I knew that…
August 30th 2019 Weight: 207 lbs Week 24 weeks 6 days Symptoms: braxton hicks, dizziness, mood swings, intense emotions, baby kicks I want to have a better relationship with Andrew. Yesterday, we had a great conversation about spiritual leadership of a husband. He and I feel more in love. I am in awe of him.…
August 26th 2019 I had an anxious day and night last night. It’s been long over-due, I suppose. Since being pregnant, I often wake up in the middle of the night to go to the washroom. I haven’t really been losing sleep just broken up. My boss’ sister told me her sister had cancer of…
Recurring Money Dreams I have been having a recurring dream having to do with money. The night of the first dream, I was really connecting with Andrew, and I was so grateful for his love. We had watched the movie Titanic, and Andrew was sweet and said to me that life was better now that…
June 26th 2019 Dear Lord, My Lord, my life. You are my sinless saviour, the love who was sent directly by God who gave His life as a ransom for me and my sins… who suffered more than any man should have to suffer, who was spat on, insulted, whipped, and crucified. This is my…
Wedding Letter and Personal Vows April 23rd, 2019 We made it! We are here on our wedding day, our day to celebrate what we already know: that we love each other the way God intended, the way people dream of. I have found my king, my lord, my life. And now I really know…
April 17th 2019 Cycle day: 40 DPO: 23 Weight: 194.5 lbs Symptoms: barely any except cramping, light-headedness, disliking meat, etc When I was at work yesterday, I remembered that I asked the 700 club (a Christian Broadcasting Network TV show that I used to donate monthly to) to pray for us to conceive a child.…
We had a positive pregnancy test!!! We are so happy, when I told Andrew, I was shaking!!! Let me tell you the story of how it came to pass. For a few months now, I was concerned about Andrew’s intentions – did he really want to have children with me? I tend to have a…
I was at Melanie’s house, on her couch and I was speaking with her mom. It did look like her but there was something wrong with her teeth. I definitely felt like she was representative of a mentor. I also dreamt that I was at a hospital waiting to see the doctor. Eventually, I told…
Hello! Happy New Year and welcome to my blog! Here will be a message to myself for the upcoming year. Danielle: Now, you should know that there will be ups and there will be downs. There is a wedding planned for May 18th 2019, but monthly I will be seeing my twin brother, which hurts…
I was watching a video, a documentary… …an Hindu/Indian man talking about enlightenment, that the Maker, the creator, lives inside of us. And he was able to heal himself from physical ailments by praying for an hour or so. And he believes in this collective consciousness, that if we expand our consciousness to those around…
One night about a week or two ago, Andrew and I had a shared dream. But compared to previous shared dreams, this dream was extraordinarily similar. Last night Andrew dreamt of a teacher from high school. He was the Teacher’s Pet. And they walked to a pizza restaurant across the street near the high school…
We are engaged!!! 5 days before we own our new home, Andrew proposed!!! He proposed at the place we first kissed. It was so romantic and lovely! I said yes! Andrew said what he loved about me was then when we are together, it is like no one else is there, it is just…
I had an interesting dream last night that I wanted to share. Sometimes I have dreams of previous people I’ve dated. And sometimes I feel guilty because I don’t know why I’m having them. They are always benign; nothing really happens that would say anything about why I’m dreaming about them. But last night it…
If you are the kind of person that does not believe in an intelligent, all-knowing force, or God, or believe there is no purpose in life, or believe life is randomly put together, then you should be questioning that after this story. If you are Christian, this should edify and encourage you. I have a…
I like reading books about psychic phenomena and see how it is related to God, prophecy, and Christian aspects. Recently, I have been reading a book about psi phenomena. It is called “Trails in the Psychic Wilderness” by Dale Graff. He was a physicist who was to eventually lead the Stargate research in the soviet…
Some people might chalk up visions, voices, or prophetic dreams as mere mental illness or delusions. People will scoff at it, because they think it is all fairy tales or mythic. Well, to those people, I beg to differ. I had been in the hospital during my second episode of elevated mood, otherwise known as…
Matthew 16: 1-4 16 The Pharisees and Sadducees came to test Jesus. So they asked him to show them a miraculous sign from heaven. 2 He responded to them, “In the evening you say that the weather will be fine because the sky is red. 3 And in the morning you say that there will be a storm today…
I have an interesting situation that happened to me and my partner Andrew. There was a night, without explanation, that I was having problem sleeping. I felt like I was having a mental and/or spiritual battle. After some time tossing and turning, I went into the living room and knelt down on a pillow and…