Being a parent with mental illness has its drawbacks, to be sure; however, like any other disability, mental illness can be managed, and managed well. A combination of therapy, medication, and social/family supports all help with setting up the parent for success. Not only that, but being insightful about your illness, knowing when an episode…
I am currently in the midst of applying to school. I have applied to a Masters of Divinity at McMaster, teacher’s college at Redeemer University, and at Conestoga College for Medication Administration, Early Childhood Education, and Interior Decorating. I have various reasons for applying to these programs. I wanted to lay them out below to…
I have been told that I have a strong will, and that I am a survivor. I believe it is true, because no matter how hard life gets, even when I am in my mind’s hell, I somehow find a way out. I am relentless. How did I get to be that way? There is…
One of the main reasons why I am applying to school is so that I can be the role model my dear Elizabeth needs. She deserves a mother who follows her dreams and never gives up. But there have been a few dreams that I have put on the back burner… When I first met…
Although being a mom is tough, I have learned to adapt. Before I could be very selfish and focus just on myself for a whole day; now, I have no choice, I have to be more selfless. The laundry and dishes always have to be done, because we need clothes and bottles. I need to…
I have a hard time figuring out what word to use to describe my experiences. Sometimes I use psychic, other times I use synchronicities, others, prophetic. In this article, I am going to flush out how I use and don’t use the terms. Psychic You see things in advance before they happen Examples for me…
I love chickpeas. They are so versatile. They can be used as part of a salad, as a dip, as an alternative meat patty for a burger, and so much more. They have a nice texture, and a subtle flavour. It is common in Mediterranean cuisine, where I also made a Fruity Lamb Tagine using…
So my husband and I are in the process of purchasing a new house. We’re living in a condo now; we love it, but there’s now a lack of space with our daughter being here. So we have been looking into combining two households; my mother-in-law and her friend Cheryl will be moving in to…
I have lost weight! It is only a pound, and could just be water weight but I don’t think so. I have been careful to eat less and move more this week, and so I think I am well on my way to starting new routines, new habits, and a better way of life. But…
Soo…. I broke my fast yesterday. I ate two meals, at lunch and at dinner. But to give myself some slack, we’ve also been taking care of a deal to buy a home and sell ours and it’s been particularly intense lately. But still, I did manage to skip breakfast, which is a feat on…
I sometimes think too much. I am a perfectionist, and I am good at thinking things through. But there are some things out there that doesn’t have an answer. I am very willful. I have pretty strong desires that can get the better of me at times. I have made mistakes because of this. I…
This is my rant for today… This society would have you believe that conformity will make you belong, feel good, make you successful. However, there’s no true concept of normality – what is normal anyway? It is just accepted reality… but what if accepted reality WAS the idiosyncratic, the unique, the difference, the weird. What…
Today marks the first day of a three day cleanse for myself and my husband. I am excited to see if we can make it without having a problem, like dehydration. I take lithium, and so dehydration is a real scary thing while taking this medication. So hopefully I am diligent enough to stay hydrated…
I recently went through a post-partem episode that was beyond what I had experienced in the past. From feeling like I was birthing a new universe, to staring into the sun (was it just a dream?), to trying to control the universe that I created, to feeling like I was in the movie It’s a…
Recently, Andrew and I have started playing the lottery. It was after much time and pressure that we decided it wasn’t sin, and do it. We weren’t sure if God wanted us to play or just trust in Him. I had a vision a few nights ago that I was looking into my wallet and…
I repented and received healing. I felt shame and grief earlier today because of a season of mistakes for 7 years, being in a wrong relationship… the prophet Tracy on It’s Supernatural by Sid Roth spoke over me, he said what I lost in 7 years I will receive in one year. I have felt…
Basically, since I have had episodes, I have been praying for a time that I would have a spiritual encounter with God and be manic, but not have depression. My first episode I was depressed for 1 year; for my 2nd episode, I was depressed for 6 months. Here is what happened. I knew that…
August 30th 2019 Weight: 207 lbs Week 24 weeks 6 days Symptoms: braxton hicks, dizziness, mood swings, intense emotions, baby kicks I want to have a better relationship with Andrew. Yesterday, we had a great conversation about spiritual leadership of a husband. He and I feel more in love. I am in awe of him.…
August 26th 2019 I had an anxious day and night last night. It’s been long over-due, I suppose. Since being pregnant, I often wake up in the middle of the night to go to the washroom. I haven’t really been losing sleep just broken up. My boss’ sister told me her sister had cancer of…
Recurring Money Dreams I have been having a recurring dream having to do with money. The night of the first dream, I was really connecting with Andrew, and I was so grateful for his love. We had watched the movie Titanic, and Andrew was sweet and said to me that life was better now that…
June 26th 2019 Dear Lord, My Lord, my life. You are my sinless saviour, the love who was sent directly by God who gave His life as a ransom for me and my sins… who suffered more than any man should have to suffer, who was spat on, insulted, whipped, and crucified. This is my…
Wedding Letter and Personal Vows April 23rd, 2019 We made it! We are here on our wedding day, our day to celebrate what we already know: that we love each other the way God intended, the way people dream of. I have found my king, my lord, my life. And now I really know…
April 17th 2019 Cycle day: 40 DPO: 23 Weight: 194.5 lbs Symptoms: barely any except cramping, light-headedness, disliking meat, etc When I was at work yesterday, I remembered that I asked the 700 club (a Christian Broadcasting Network TV show that I used to donate monthly to) to pray for us to conceive a child.…
We had a positive pregnancy test!!! We are so happy, when I told Andrew, I was shaking!!! Let me tell you the story of how it came to pass. For a few months now, I was concerned about Andrew’s intentions – did he really want to have children with me? I tend to have a…
I was at Melanie’s house, on her couch and I was speaking with her mom. It did look like her but there was something wrong with her teeth. I definitely felt like she was representative of a mentor. I also dreamt that I was at a hospital waiting to see the doctor. Eventually, I told…