Follow my spiritual moments as I walk through life as a diagnosed Manic-Depressive, Psychic, Empath Christian.
Dearest Lord, I am in awe of you. You, the only one who will ever die for me, to save me, to bring me back to God, to bring me back in His loving embrace. You, the only one who will ever truly understand me, who sees all things about me, and knows all things…
As a prophetic ministry Christian, I feel as though God slows my time down in order to show me things in real time. I have uncanny situations that happen all the time. I feel like it is time for me to work on my prophetic ministry. The key is to be able to decipher between…
I had watched a documentary on Netflix called “Top Secret UFO Projects: Declassified”, and it began the series with a fact I was never aware of: there are paintings and depictions of Jesus that shows UFO’s in the background. I used to be a non-believer of extraterrestrials and UFO’s. I had a negative perspective on…
It’s sad but true; in this day and age, Christianity is one of the most persecuted faiths in the world. More and more, I find myself having to defend myself and my reason to be a Christian. By being Christian, I appear ignorant, stupid, judgmental, arrogant, self-righteous, archaic, and proud. While that may be true…
Everyone has their bad days from time to time. You might snip at your partner, or seclude yourself in a room for a day. You might swear at a co-worker, or flip a driver off. Whatever it may be, there’s plenty of times where people might have bad day. For people diagnosed as Bipolar, it’s…
There are two kinds of people in this life: people who believe personalities can change, and those who do not believe they can change. There’s also one good piece of advice: never marry the latter. This is because personalities should change over a lifetime. Being a workaholic in your thirties represses free-spiritedness and spontaneity that…
We are at the tail end of the pandemic, so things are looking up this year. I can’t imagine this year being much worse than last year… but I could be surprised. We’ve gone through some ups and downs, but in order for 2021 to be better we will have to make some important choices.…
Unless you are part of the lucky few who absolutely love their jobs, working is hard. Especially as a bipolar mom. Let me explain. Bipolar mothers are very sensitive emotionally as it is, and especially so towards their little children. Leaving them makes you question your ability to parent, makes you question whether they will…
One of the themes in my life (and perhaps many with bipolar or anxiety disorder) is trusting other people or other influences way more than listening to my inner voice and being my authentic self. I am the obedient type, and can succumb to peer pressure and media influences. So much in culture is about…
I have been told that I have a strong will, and that I am a survivor. I believe it is true, because no matter how hard life gets, even when I am in my mind’s hell, I somehow find a way out. I am relentless. How did I get to be that way? There is…
I have a hard time figuring out what word to use to describe my experiences. Sometimes I use psychic, other times I use synchronicities, others, prophetic. In this article, I am going to flush out how I use and don’t use the terms. Psychic You see things in advance before they happen Examples for me…
I recently went through a post-partem episode that was beyond what I had experienced in the past. From feeling like I was birthing a new universe, to staring into the sun (was it just a dream?), to trying to control the universe that I created, to feeling like I was in the movie It’s a…
I repented and received healing. I felt shame and grief earlier today because of a season of mistakes for 7 years, being in a wrong relationship… the prophet Tracy on It’s Supernatural by Sid Roth spoke over me, he said what I lost in 7 years I will receive in one year. I have felt…
Basically, since I have had episodes, I have been praying for a time that I would have a spiritual encounter with God and be manic, but not have depression. My first episode I was depressed for 1 year; for my 2nd episode, I was depressed for 6 months. Here is what happened. I knew that…
August 30th 2019 Weight: 207 lbs Week 24 weeks 6 days Symptoms: braxton hicks, dizziness, mood swings, intense emotions, baby kicks I want to have a better relationship with Andrew. Yesterday, we had a great conversation about spiritual leadership of a husband. He and I feel more in love. I am in awe of him.…
August 26th 2019 I had an anxious day and night last night. It’s been long over-due, I suppose. Since being pregnant, I often wake up in the middle of the night to go to the washroom. I haven’t really been losing sleep just broken up. My boss’ sister told me her sister had cancer of…
Recurring Money Dreams I have been having a recurring dream having to do with money. The night of the first dream, I was really connecting with Andrew, and I was so grateful for his love. We had watched the movie Titanic, and Andrew was sweet and said to me that life was better now that…
June 26th 2019 Dear Lord, My Lord, my life. You are my sinless saviour, the love who was sent directly by God who gave His life as a ransom for me and my sins… who suffered more than any man should have to suffer, who was spat on, insulted, whipped, and crucified. This is my…
April 17th 2019 Cycle day: 40 DPO: 23 Weight: 194.5 lbs Symptoms: barely any except cramping, light-headedness, disliking meat, etc When I was at work yesterday, I remembered that I asked the 700 club (a Christian Broadcasting Network TV show that I used to donate monthly to) to pray for us to conceive a child.…
We had a positive pregnancy test!!! We are so happy, when I told Andrew, I was shaking!!! Let me tell you the story of how it came to pass. For a few months now, I was concerned about Andrew’s intentions – did he really want to have children with me? I tend to have a…
I was watching a video, a documentary… …an Hindu/Indian man talking about enlightenment, that the Maker, the creator, lives inside of us. And he was able to heal himself from physical ailments by praying for an hour or so. And he believes in this collective consciousness, that if we expand our consciousness to those around…
I like reading books about psychic phenomena and see how it is related to God, prophecy, and Christian aspects. Recently, I have been reading a book about psi phenomena. It is called “Trails in the Psychic Wilderness” by Dale Graff. He was a physicist who was to eventually lead the Stargate research in the soviet…
Some people might chalk up visions, voices, or prophetic dreams as mere mental illness or delusions. People will scoff at it, because they think it is all fairy tales or mythic. Well, to those people, I beg to differ. I had been in the hospital during my second episode of elevated mood, otherwise known as…
I have an interesting situation that happened to me and my partner Andrew. There was a night, without explanation, that I was having problem sleeping. I felt like I was having a mental and/or spiritual battle. After some time tossing and turning, I went into the living room and knelt down on a pillow and…
I had an interesting dream after a wonderful evening. Andrew and I went to Port Dover and looked at the stars with a full moon. It was so beautiful. I felt so much love and awe in my heart. It was fantastic. Then that night I had a dream. I was speaking to some sort…