Follow my spiritual moments as I walk through life as a diagnosed Manic-Depressive, Psychic, Empath Christian.
We are at the tail end of the pandemic, so things are looking up this year. I can’t imagine this year being much worse than last year… but I could be surprised. We’ve gone through some ups and downs, but in order for 2021 to be better we will have to make some important choices.…
Unless you are part of the lucky few who absolutely love their jobs, working is hard. Especially as a bipolar mom. Let me explain. Bipolar mothers are very sensitive emotionally as it is, and especially so towards their little children. Leaving them makes you question your ability to parent, makes you question whether they will…
One of the themes in my life (and perhaps many with bipolar or anxiety disorder) is trusting other people or other influences way more than listening to my inner voice and being my authentic self. I am the obedient type, and can succumb to peer pressure and media influences. So much in culture is about…
I have been told that I have a strong will, and that I am a survivor. I believe it is true, because no matter how hard life gets, even when I am in my mind’s hell, I somehow find a way out. I am relentless. How did I get to be that way? There is…
I have a hard time figuring out what word to use to describe my experiences. Sometimes I use psychic, other times I use synchronicities, others, prophetic. In this article, I am going to flush out how I use and don’t use the terms. Psychic You see things in advance before they happen Examples for me…
I recently went through a post-partem episode that was beyond what I had experienced in the past. From feeling like I was birthing a new universe, to staring into the sun (was it just a dream?), to trying to control the universe that I created, to feeling like I was in the movie It’s a…
I repented and received healing. I felt shame and grief earlier today because of a season of mistakes for 7 years, being in a wrong relationship… the prophet Tracy on It’s Supernatural by Sid Roth spoke over me, he said what I lost in 7 years I will receive in one year. I have felt…
Basically, since I have had episodes, I have been praying for a time that I would have a spiritual encounter with God and be manic, but not have depression. My first episode I was depressed for 1 year; for my 2nd episode, I was depressed for 6 months. Here is what happened. I knew that…
August 30th 2019 Weight: 207 lbs Week 24 weeks 6 days Symptoms: braxton hicks, dizziness, mood swings, intense emotions, baby kicks I want to have a better relationship with Andrew. Yesterday, we had a great conversation about spiritual leadership of a husband. He and I feel more in love. I am in awe of him.…
August 26th 2019 I had an anxious day and night last night. It’s been long over-due, I suppose. Since being pregnant, I often wake up in the middle of the night to go to the washroom. I haven’t really been losing sleep just broken up. My boss’ sister told me her sister had cancer of…
Recurring Money Dreams I have been having a recurring dream having to do with money. The night of the first dream, I was really connecting with Andrew, and I was so grateful for his love. We had watched the movie Titanic, and Andrew was sweet and said to me that life was better now that…
June 26th 2019 Dear Lord, My Lord, my life. You are my sinless saviour, the love who was sent directly by God who gave His life as a ransom for me and my sins… who suffered more than any man should have to suffer, who was spat on, insulted, whipped, and crucified. This is my…
April 17th 2019 Cycle day: 40 DPO: 23 Weight: 194.5 lbs Symptoms: barely any except cramping, light-headedness, disliking meat, etc When I was at work yesterday, I remembered that I asked the 700 club (a Christian Broadcasting Network TV show that I used to donate monthly to) to pray for us to conceive a child.…
We had a positive pregnancy test!!! We are so happy, when I told Andrew, I was shaking!!! Let me tell you the story of how it came to pass. For a few months now, I was concerned about Andrew’s intentions – did he really want to have children with me? I tend to have a…
I was watching a video, a documentary… …an Hindu/Indian man talking about enlightenment, that the Maker, the creator, lives inside of us. And he was able to heal himself from physical ailments by praying for an hour or so. And he believes in this collective consciousness, that if we expand our consciousness to those around…
I like reading books about psychic phenomena and see how it is related to God, prophecy, and Christian aspects. Recently, I have been reading a book about psi phenomena. It is called “Trails in the Psychic Wilderness” by Dale Graff. He was a physicist who was to eventually lead the Stargate research in the soviet…
Some people might chalk up visions, voices, or prophetic dreams as mere mental illness or delusions. People will scoff at it, because they think it is all fairy tales or mythic. Well, to those people, I beg to differ. I had been in the hospital during my second episode of elevated mood, otherwise known as…
I have an interesting situation that happened to me and my partner Andrew. There was a night, without explanation, that I was having problem sleeping. I felt like I was having a mental and/or spiritual battle. After some time tossing and turning, I went into the living room and knelt down on a pillow and…
I had an interesting dream after a wonderful evening. Andrew and I went to Port Dover and looked at the stars with a full moon. It was so beautiful. I felt so much love and awe in my heart. It was fantastic. Then that night I had a dream. I was speaking to some sort…
Andrew and I decided to be married before God. We set up a mini-altar with Candles, we knelt down, and said our Vows… Andrew’s Vows Our Father in Heaven, Your name above all Others. Today I confidently and humbly Approach your throne to request your witness to Proclaim my love for Danielle Bouchard to you…
Andrew slept over, we played games at Game Time, and we made love. It was beautiful. I knew what I wanted, I had clarity. I love him, my boyfriend, my love, my sweetheart, my soul mate. I want to make him happy for the rest of my life. I’m ready to start an imperfect…
I wrote a poem for Andrew: What It Takes What does it take For us to be boyfriend and girlfriend? We will express friendly curiosity And exclusivity As we get to know and see If we’re meant to be What does it take To be engaged to one another? This is when we know,…
“Now, this is what was spoken by the prophet Joel: ‘In the last days, God says, I will pour out My Spirit on all people; your sons and daughters will prophesy, your young men will see visions, your old men will dream dreams. Even on My servants, both men and women, I will pour out…
Unless you are watchful, it is easy to overlook the spiritual battle that is going on in the world today. There are many evils that are taking place and we Christians have to stand up and take a stance or otherwise we could become the lukewarm Christians the bible warns us about. There are a…
There is not a lot of writing out there combining my Christian faith and my diagnosis of bipolar. And so I decided to write a song, about who I am and what probably many people are like. Never Let Him Out of Sight I grew up soft, not being too loud My foundation was as…