One Way to Determine If Your Miracle is The Truth (or Whether your Reality is a Lie like “The Matrix”)

One Way to Determine If Your Miracle is The Truth (or Whether your Reality is a Lie like “The Matrix”)

Jesus walking on water
Jesus walking on water


Hello and welcome to my blog, where spirituality and reality intersect! Please bear in mind I am just an amateur, but what lies ahead is an interesting discussion of what is real versus what is the miraculous, or put another way, what is real versus what is the Matrix.

In this article, you will find:

  • My definition of schizoaffective
  • Consensus reality to Determine Reality vs Miracles
  • Desire
  • Conclusion

My Definition of Schizoaffective

I have been diagnosed schizoaffective, which is “a mental health disorder that is marked by a combination of schizophrenia symptoms, such as hallucinations or delusions, and mood disorder symptoms, such as depression or mania”.¹ However, I don’t like that definition. I prefer my own definition: schizoaffective is a disorder of conscience of the mind and conscience of the heart. This means that I have a wandering mind (I think far past what I am “supposed” to think) and a wandering heart (my emotions can ring with fiery love for people I’m not supposed to). So essentially, it is a disorder of the mind and heart. And the result of which is I can see things that are not there, hear things that only I can hear, and feel things I’m not supposed to fear.  This means I can’t trust my senses on a basic level.

The Matrix: Resurrection

So if I can’t trust my instincts on a basic level. So I’m like, living in The Matrix Resurrections. There are things that are real mixed with things that are unreal, especially when I am going through an episode. SPOILER ALERT: It is like I am Trinity, trying to decide who is the one I am supposed to be with, or should I choose my true love over my children? So deciphering what is real and what is unreal is of paramount importance, because if I am supposed to take my “pills”, how do I know I am not being tricked to taking enough to kill me every day? How do I know I am taking my medications at all?

Consensus Reality to Determine Reality vs Miracles

This has become a debate on epistemology: the study of how we know anything at all. I will discuss one of the ways we think we know things. Someone could say consensus reality would be enough. If you don’t know what that means, it’s “reality is either what exists, or what we can agree by consensus seems to exist”.² There are examples of this in the bible, namely in 1 Corinthians 15:5-7:

“and that He appeared to Cephas and then to the Twelve. After that, He appeared to more than five hundred brothers at once, most of whom are still living, though some have fallen asleep. Then He appeared to James, then to all the apostles.”

This is an amazing claim in the bible, and has helped me in previous episodes decipher what is real and what is not real.

But there are obviously some faults in this: if you can convince a few people that what you think is real is real before you reveal a questionable item of reality (QIR), you can convince these few people to be primed to see your version of reality (which could be seen as plurality of minds reading of one mind). This has happened to me, where I influenced the outcome of the proposed miracle, or QIR.

But there are what seems to me two ways to protect from this: if your heart and mind can sense it is good and true (which are qualities of God), then you can be rest assured that what everyone is experiencing is truth (i.e. knowing that it is in the bible as good is a good start to assessing something’s goodness). Additionally, to avoid influencing others before the aforementioned QIR, then you need to keep your mouth shut. This is help you from influencing others before the final reveal, and to help decipher the truth of a QIR.

Here is a good template for assessing a QIR. We can actually borrow concepts about whether you can tell if someone is in love with you (which is a big questionable item of reality for some people). You have a questionable item x. You want to know the objective truth of x. So you leave it be. In prayer, you don’t seek after it. In you mind, you let it go. When you pass them, you ignore them (even if you are feeling so strong for them, you leave them). Do this for a couple of days. Then see if your heart and mind agrees by looking at evidence. Pray, and see if God answers. If He does, that’s a huge clue. But if you talk with the person, are there manifestations of their love for you? Do they admit having feelings for you? Do they have hallucinations that coincide with your feelings for them? Do they hear your voice in their head? Do they have good voices instead of bad when being around you? These are strong manifestations of love.


But there is still a missing element, and I call this the desire clause. If you are seeing miracles but you are not desiring those types of miracles, then this QIR should fall under the branch of unreal. I believe in a God that wouldn’t do a bait and switch; where you ask for something, and He gives you something else. There is a verse about this in the bible in Luke 11:10-12:

So I tell you: Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

What father among you, if his son asks for a fish, will give him a snake instead? Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? So if you who are evil know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask Him!”

So to me, God wouldn’t give us a hunger unless it was good. God will give you the desires of your heart and the desires of your mind. And not fake versions of it, but the real thing.


I’m not saying I know everything. In fact, the Catholic Church, when assessing whether something was a miracle, will take decades sometimes to ascertain if something was a miracle. And they still get a lot of bona fide miracles. I am only an amateur, as I said earlier. But I have experienced a lot, and for someone with a heavy mental health diagnosis and doing this well, I think I have learned a lot and can share some of my knowledge with you.

Feel free to leave a comment below with your take on consensus reality!