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Being a Parent with Mental Illness

Being a Parent with Mental Illness

Being a parent with mental illness has its drawbacks, to be sure; however, like any other disability, mental illness can be managed, and managed well. A combination of therapy, medication, and social/family supports all help with setting up the parent for success. Not only that, but being insightful about your illness, knowing when an episode…

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I am relentless!

I am relentless!

I have been told that I have a strong will, and that I am a survivor. I believe it is true, because no matter how hard life gets, even when I am in my mind’s hell, I somehow find a way out. I am relentless. How did I get to be that way? There is…

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To Go or Not Go Back to School…

To Go or Not Go Back to School…

One of the main reasons why I am applying to school is so that I can be the role model my dear Elizabeth needs. She deserves a mother who follows her dreams and never gives up. But there have been a few dreams that I have put on the back burner… When I first met…

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Conversations with the Ob/Gyn

Conversations with the Ob/Gyn

I have lost weight! It is only a pound, and could just be water weight but I don’t think so. I have been careful to eat less and move more this week, and so I think I am well on my way to starting new routines, new habits, and a better way of life. But…

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I broke my cleanse fast

I broke my cleanse fast

Soo…. I broke my fast yesterday. I ate two meals, at lunch and at dinner. But to give myself some slack, we’ve also been taking care of a deal to buy a home and sell ours and it’s been particularly intense lately. But still, I did manage to skip breakfast, which is a feat on…

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In Love with Life

In Love with Life

I sometimes think too much. I am a perfectionist, and I am good at thinking things through. But there are some things out there that doesn’t have an answer. I am very willful. I have pretty strong desires that can get the better of me at times. I have made mistakes because of this. I…

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3-Day Cleanse

3-Day Cleanse

Today marks the first day of a three day cleanse for myself and my husband. I am excited to see if we can make it without having a problem, like dehydration. I take lithium, and so dehydration is a real scary thing while taking this medication. So hopefully I am diligent enough to stay hydrated…

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More Healings and Miracles

More Healings and Miracles

August 26th 2019 I had an anxious day and night last night. It’s been long over-due, I suppose. Since being pregnant, I often wake up in the middle of the night to go to the washroom. I haven’t really been losing sleep just broken up. My boss’ sister told me her sister had cancer of…

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Prayers to Heal My Arrogance

Prayers to Heal My Arrogance

June 26th 2019 Dear Lord, My Lord, my life. You are my sinless saviour, the love who was sent directly by God who gave His life as a ransom for me and my sins… who suffered more than any man should have to suffer, who was spat on, insulted, whipped, and crucified. This is my…

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My Child’s Calling?

My Child’s Calling?

April 17th 2019 Cycle day: 40 DPO: 23 Weight: 194.5 lbs Symptoms: barely any except cramping, light-headedness, disliking meat, etc When I was at work yesterday, I remembered that I asked the 700 club (a Christian Broadcasting Network TV show that I used to donate monthly to) to pray for us to conceive a child.…

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We’re Having a Baby!!!

We’re Having a Baby!!!

We had a positive pregnancy test!!! We are so happy, when I told Andrew, I was shaking!!! Let me tell you the story of how it came to pass. For a few months now, I was concerned about Andrew’s intentions – did he really want to have children with me? I tend to have a…

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Dreams in the New Year

Dreams in the New Year

I was at Melanie’s house, on her couch and I was speaking with her mom. It did look like her but there was something wrong with her teeth. I definitely felt like she was representative of a mentor. I also dreamt that I was at a hospital waiting to see the doctor. Eventually, I told…

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Shared Teacher’s Dream

Shared Teacher’s Dream

One night about a week or two ago, Andrew and I had a shared dream. But compared to previous shared dreams, this dream was extraordinarily similar. Last night Andrew dreamt of a teacher from high school. He was the Teacher’s Pet. And they walked to a pizza restaurant across the street near the high school…

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Oil Spill Dream

Oil Spill Dream

I had an interesting dream last night that I wanted to share. Sometimes I have dreams of previous people I’ve dated. And sometimes I feel guilty because I don’t know why I’m having them. They are always benign; nothing really happens that would say anything about why I’m dreaming about them. But last night it…

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The Blonde Prophetic Dream

The Blonde Prophetic Dream

Some people might chalk up visions, voices, or prophetic dreams as mere mental illness or delusions. People will scoff at it, because they think it is all fairy tales or mythic. Well, to those people, I beg to differ. I had been in the hospital during my second episode of elevated mood, otherwise known as…

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Asking for a sign…

Asking for a sign…

Matthew 16: 1-4 16 The Pharisees and Sadducees came to test Jesus. So they asked him to show them a miraculous sign from heaven. 2 He responded to them, “In the evening you say that the weather will be fine because the sky is red. 3 And in the morning you say that there will be a storm today…

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Demons Are Real

Demons Are Real

I have an interesting situation that happened to me and my partner Andrew. There was a night, without explanation, that I was having problem sleeping. I felt like I was having a mental and/or spiritual battle. After some time tossing and turning, I went into the living room and knelt down on a pillow and…

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Dream of Hearing God’s Voice

Dream of Hearing God’s Voice

I had an interesting dream after a wonderful evening. Andrew and I went to Port Dover and looked at the stars with a full moon. It was so beautiful. I felt so much love and awe in my heart. It was fantastic. Then that night I had a dream. I was speaking to some sort…

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Andrew Opens Up

Andrew Opens Up

  Andrew opened up last night. Andrew is a romantic kind of guy. He was ever since he was young. But he didn’t get lucky with girls, it was always the athletic guys who were more mean that got the girls. He is frustrated with women who say they want romance but really want something…

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Reflections on Our Time Together So Far…

Reflections on Our Time Together So Far…

  I want to take some time to reflect about conversations we’ve had, things I have learned, and how I can be a complement to Andrew. Andrew has never really been in debt before, except when he took a $10 000 bank loan to pay for a computer, which he paid off in a year.…

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Love…

Love…

  Andrew slept over, we played games at Game Time, and we made love. It was beautiful. I knew what I wanted, I had clarity. I love him, my boyfriend, my love, my sweetheart, my soul mate. I want to make him happy for the rest of my life. I’m ready to start an imperfect…

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