One of the themes in my life (and perhaps many with bipolar or anxiety disorder) is trusting other people or other influences way more than listening to my inner voice and being my authentic self. I am the obedient type, and can succumb to peer pressure and media influences. So much in culture is about…
Although being a mom is tough, I have learned to adapt. Before I could be very selfish and focus just on myself for a whole day; now, I have no choice, I have to be more selfless. The laundry and dishes always have to be done, because we need clothes and bottles. I need to…
Recurring Money Dreams I have been having a recurring dream having to do with money. The night of the first dream, I was really connecting with Andrew, and I was so grateful for his love. We had watched the movie Titanic, and Andrew was sweet and said to me that life was better now that…
We are engaged!!! 5 days before we own our new home, Andrew proposed!!! He proposed at the place we first kissed. It was so romantic and lovely! I said yes! Andrew said what he loved about me was then when we are together, it is like no one else is there, it is just…
If you are the kind of person that does not believe in an intelligent, all-knowing force, or God, or believe there is no purpose in life, or believe life is randomly put together, then you should be questioning that after this story. If you are Christian, this should edify and encourage you. I have a…
Andrew said that I am the perfect lady, that I was a good decision. Andrew said that for other relationships it was because they had a nice body. But with me, he thought he made a good decision. I love that. Sometimes we just need to celebrate the little things.
Andrew and I decided to be married before God. We set up a mini-altar with Candles, we knelt down, and said our Vows… Andrew’s Vows Our Father in Heaven, Your name above all Others. Today I confidently and humbly Approach your throne to request your witness to Proclaim my love for Danielle Bouchard to you…
Andrew opened up last night. Andrew is a romantic kind of guy. He was ever since he was young. But he didn’t get lucky with girls, it was always the athletic guys who were more mean that got the girls. He is frustrated with women who say they want romance but really want something…
Andrew and I had an intimate talk yesterday. He wants me to open up more and talk about everything, even the negatives. I am afraid of doing that, I am afraid that he’ll get hurt, that he won’t like what I have to say. He is very open and honest. We also decided that…
I want to take some time to reflect about conversations we’ve had, things I have learned, and how I can be a complement to Andrew. Andrew has never really been in debt before, except when he took a $10 000 bank loan to pay for a computer, which he paid off in a year.…
Andrew slept over, we played games at Game Time, and we made love. It was beautiful. I knew what I wanted, I had clarity. I love him, my boyfriend, my love, my sweetheart, my soul mate. I want to make him happy for the rest of my life. I’m ready to start an imperfect…
Andrew and I had taken a break from kissing but we returned to kissing. It was nice. We tried it but it didn’t work. We can’t keep our hands off each other. He’s so special to me. We talked about engagement. I am not legally able to get married presently. I think he wants…
I had a wonderful 31st birthday, and I spent the evening with Andrew. I think I had too much wine, so I broke a command, but I have repented and sought forgiveness. I am healed. We talked about a lot of different things. We shared a combo for 2 people, but we also bought…
He’s making me something and I’m making him something. I am so happy and distracted. All I want to do is talk to him in person and get to know him better but we’re far apart. I already feel like I love him. I respect him for who he is: a good person. And…
I couldn’t sleep last night. I was so excited about our second date that I took a bath at 10:30pm at night to try to relax. I ended up feeling pretty refreshed when I went into work. We went to the Sociable and we talked about various things. Picking up from our first date,…
Although a lot has happened in the last few weeks since being admitted to the hospital, there’s really only one thing I would like to write about. I found true love, and I am unsure what to do about it now. Typing this seems so unnatural. I feel like writing it down. Then again,…
I had a dream of my ex-boyfriend, my first real boyfriend. He was like my dream come true. He was my perfect man. I loved him so much. I was 13 and he was 14. He was handsome, and cute, and my romantic ideal. He would surprise me, visit me constantly, we regularly kissed, despite…