Tag: manic depressive

Being in a Bad Mood – Bipolar Edition

Being in a Bad Mood – Bipolar Edition

Everyone has their bad days from time to time. You might snip at your partner, or seclude yourself in a room for a day. You might swear at a co-worker, or flip a driver off. Whatever it may be, there’s plenty of times where people might have bad day. For people diagnosed as Bipolar, it’s…

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Nothing Is As Easy As It Seems…

Nothing Is As Easy As It Seems…

Looking back at how I felt in September (feeling irritable, depressed, tired, etc), going to work has basically only made me have more responsibility. I have to be on call and prepared to leave at a moment’s notice at any given moment. And when I do have the call, I need to prepare Elizabeth’s lunch…

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Accepted for Canada Post as a Delivery Agent!

Accepted for Canada Post as a Delivery Agent!

FINALLY, I got a job! I am officially a delivery agent for Canada Post (formerly letter carrier). I am excited! It was a long process of hiring, with several interviews, tests, background checks and so forth. It isn’t in my hometown, however, it is in Cambridge, which means I will have a commute (about 30…

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Bipolar Parenting During the Pandemic

Bipolar Parenting During the Pandemic

Parenting is tough – being a bipolar parent is even tougher. I have noticed during the pandemic that I have been more irritable; everyday seems to be a struggle. When my baby spills food, I get frustrated because its just one other thing I have to clean (it seems like all I do is clean nowadays).…

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I am relentless!

I am relentless!

I have been told that I have a strong will, and that I am a survivor. I believe it is true, because no matter how hard life gets, even when I am in my mind’s hell, I somehow find a way out. I am relentless. How did I get to be that way? There is…

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Conversations with the Ob/Gyn

Conversations with the Ob/Gyn

I have lost weight! It is only a pound, and could just be water weight but I don’t think so. I have been careful to eat less and move more this week, and so I think I am well on my way to starting new routines, new habits, and a better way of life. But…

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I broke my cleanse fast

I broke my cleanse fast

Soo…. I broke my fast yesterday. I ate two meals, at lunch and at dinner. But to give myself some slack, we’ve also been taking care of a deal to buy a home and sell ours and it’s been particularly intense lately. But still, I did manage to skip breakfast, which is a feat on…

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More Healings and Miracles

More Healings and Miracles

August 26th 2019 I had an anxious day and night last night. It’s been long over-due, I suppose. Since being pregnant, I often wake up in the middle of the night to go to the washroom. I haven’t really been losing sleep just broken up. My boss’ sister told me her sister had cancer of…

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Dreams in the New Year

Dreams in the New Year

I was at Melanie’s house, on her couch and I was speaking with her mom. It did look like her but there was something wrong with her teeth. I definitely felt like she was representative of a mentor. I also dreamt that I was at a hospital waiting to see the doctor. Eventually, I told…

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Shared Teacher’s Dream

Shared Teacher’s Dream

One night about a week or two ago, Andrew and I had a shared dream. But compared to previous shared dreams, this dream was extraordinarily similar. Last night Andrew dreamt of a teacher from high school. He was the Teacher’s Pet. And they walked to a pizza restaurant across the street near the high school…

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Oil Spill Dream

Oil Spill Dream

I had an interesting dream last night that I wanted to share. Sometimes I have dreams of previous people I’ve dated. And sometimes I feel guilty because I don’t know why I’m having them. They are always benign; nothing really happens that would say anything about why I’m dreaming about them. But last night it…

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The Blonde Prophetic Dream

The Blonde Prophetic Dream

Some people might chalk up visions, voices, or prophetic dreams as mere mental illness or delusions. People will scoff at it, because they think it is all fairy tales or mythic. Well, to those people, I beg to differ. I had been in the hospital during my second episode of elevated mood, otherwise known as…

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Asking for a sign…

Asking for a sign…

Matthew 16: 1-4 16 The Pharisees and Sadducees came to test Jesus. So they asked him to show them a miraculous sign from heaven. 2 He responded to them, “In the evening you say that the weather will be fine because the sky is red. 3 And in the morning you say that there will be a storm today…

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Demons Are Real

Demons Are Real

I have an interesting situation that happened to me and my partner Andrew. There was a night, without explanation, that I was having problem sleeping. I felt like I was having a mental and/or spiritual battle. After some time tossing and turning, I went into the living room and knelt down on a pillow and…

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Dream of Hearing God’s Voice

Dream of Hearing God’s Voice

I had an interesting dream after a wonderful evening. Andrew and I went to Port Dover and looked at the stars with a full moon. It was so beautiful. I felt so much love and awe in my heart. It was fantastic. Then that night I had a dream. I was speaking to some sort…

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Reflections on Our Time Together So Far…

Reflections on Our Time Together So Far…

  I want to take some time to reflect about conversations we’ve had, things I have learned, and how I can be a complement to Andrew. Andrew has never really been in debt before, except when he took a $10 000 bank loan to pay for a computer, which he paid off in a year.…

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To Kiss or Not to Kiss…

To Kiss or Not to Kiss…

  Andrew and I had taken a break from kissing but we returned to kissing. It was nice. We tried it but it didn’t work. We can’t keep our hands off each other. He’s so special to me. We talked about engagement. I am not legally able to get married presently. I think he wants…

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My Birthday Celebration…

My Birthday Celebration…

  I had a wonderful 31st birthday, and I spent the evening with Andrew. I think I had too much wine, so I broke a command, but I have repented and sought forgiveness. I am healed. We talked about a lot of different things. We shared a combo for 2 people, but we also bought…

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On the Spiritual Gifts

On the Spiritual Gifts

“Now, this is what was spoken by the prophet Joel: ‘In the last days, God says, I will pour out My Spirit on all people; your sons and daughters will prophesy, your young men will see visions, your old men will dream dreams. Even on My servants, both men and women, I will pour out…

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Skinny Cat Dream

Skinny Cat Dream

So I had a dream that included my cat, but he was super skinny and I was concerned that he wasn’t eating. How could I interpret that dream? Well, cats are luxurious creatures, especially mine. Maybe it means that I have been losing out on luxuries, which is partly true, or that I should remove…

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Portuguese Dream

Portuguese Dream

I had a dream last night. This was after having a hard time falling asleep because I was missing my ex. I couldn’t stop thinking about him. I dreamt that he was my old ex-boyfriend and he was dating and having sex with a portuguese actress. He decided to be with me in the dream…

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